Saturday, March 28, 2020

The Gift of Aloneness

My aloneness unfolds beside me,
Like the petals of a wild flower,
Each petal baring,
a piece of my soul.
Each petal unravelling,
the truth at my core.

 One petal,
for the stillness of time.
One petal,
for the clarity of my mind.
One petal,
for the peace in the now.
One petal,
for fears cast behind.

One petal,
for my inner courage forgotten.
One,
to unravel to me the higher Being.
One petal,
 to nurture my own childlike self.
And one,
for health within my fading shell.

One petal to choose whom I share my aloneness with,
And one last petal to relish this providential gift.

I sit with my aloneness,
cherishing it in my hands.
As it brings me back to myself,
in ways only the universe understands.

Monday, February 13, 2012

ASTANGA YOGA

13th February, 2012

The eight-fold path of Astanga Yoga promises to take one closer and closer to the true self. But in my more practical experience, these are wonderful tools with which to make one's life simpler and more clear to oneself. As soon as one starts practising these tools , the results are apparent. Of course there is pain, as there is bound to be with change, but the beauty of this path is that one's relationship with pain changes as one moves forward. There is more respect for it and less denial of it. There is more acceptance and less running away. There is more clarity.

This is probably going to be my longest poem so far. It is not complete yet.



Simple steps but eight,
Lifetimes of learning unfurled,
Purple flames oscillate,
through the outer and the inner worlds.

Burning, bleaching, reducing,
Leading towards an entity,
Composed of nothing,
And yet all-encompassing.
Of life and time and beyond,
Of ideas not yet dawned.

A ladder of silken steps,
Slippery as they are strong,
Leading forward forever,
Floating on the breath’s song.

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First of the eight- the yamas
are a link,
Between what’s out,
and what’s within.
To clarify,
To understand,
To purify.
To embrace,
And,
to defy.

To see the subtle string of life,
That wraps one with the world,
Further beyond the face,
The birth, the time, the place,
Delving deeper,
To what’s underlying all.

The yamas speak of non-violence.

which connects,
which lightens,
which burns.

Which sews a cloak of love,
Pacifying the pain,
Reaching beyond refrain,
Touching the troubled parts,
Of muddled minds and hearts,
To soften the sword of anger,
And the hurt that it spews forth,
An unsaid, unwritten oath,
Promised on one’s part.


The yamas speak of truth.

Acts that mirror your words,
Words that mirror your thoughts,
A heart as free as a flying bird,
Freedom from what is not.

It connects,
It lightens,
It burns.

It clarifies to you your own self,
It dissipates that which is not,
It is the pillar, the light and the sieve,
In a world with impurity fraught.
The world within your withering shell,
That resonates with reels untrue,
Truth will set you free from this,
Revealing the real you.

The yamas speak of not stealing.

For what is worth is with you,
Deep within your distraught shell,
If you will only care to listen,
It chimes as clear as a bell.

Lifetimes linger by,
Time enough to tinker with,
What you do stays strong,
What you have is the ego’s haul,
It’s what you do that moves you along.

To take that which is not one’s own,
In thought, or word or deed,
Is to pile up one’s plate,
With no actual abate,
With pain, and suffering and need.
It is to employ emptiness,
By gnawing away at greed.


The yamas speak of abstinence.

A loose heart and a loose mind-
The slinking shadows of life,
The senses they play,
All night and all day,
In the garb of pleasure,
one swallows strife.

To remain an onlooker,
Who chooses carefully,
What enters his heart,
What captures his mind,
To the play of senses,
By choosing to be blind.

Storing one’s energies,
For higher quests and goals,
Freeing one’s spirit,
From the material hold,
One can move further,
closer,
deeper.

Like a still pendulum,
That has found its centre,
Like the lost child,
Who has gained,
the highest mentor.

The yamas speak of non-hoarding.

To be content,
To be with the breath,
To savour the moment,
To transcend death.

Break loose the shackles,
That bind you to what you see,
Hold lightly the bonds,
That urge you to be.

For all that you see and hear,
Will filter through one day,
And content and calm,
In your nakedness you will lay.

Beauty will be forever yours,
In the mirror of time,
You will find yourself in eternity,
Your identity sublime.

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The second of the eight- the niyamas,
Are rules for oneself,
And oneself alone,
As clear as water,
As stable as stone.
To cease the ceaseless chatter,
Of a swinging, sweeping mind,
To delve into the abyss,
Of the unknown self and time.
To burn, to brighten, to bow,
And with light oneself endow.

The niyamas speak of cleanliness.

Clean the clutter,
To make space for the pure,
Dust out the darkness,
Ignite the impure.

Ashes of ignorance,
Swept into spools of fear,
Clarify the clouded,
Question the term `dear’.

Release your raving mind,
From the cobwebs of time,
Shine in some light,
Bring in what’s bright,
Release and realign.



The niyamas speak of contentment.

The fullness of a morsel,
Felt in its every grain,
The wetness of a downpour,
In every droplet of rain.

A heart that seeks no more,
Than it has or will see,
To be in the here and now,
Than in what has or what can be.

A palm that holds lightly,
Willing to give away,
Willing to transform,
to whatever is life’s way.


The niyamas speak of penance.

Flashing flames of penance,
Fuelling your every thought,
Cleansing,
Filitering,
Burning,
All that with impurity fraught.

Towards a calmer mind,
Towards a giving hand,
Towards a smiling face,
Towards a flexible stand.

Burning through the ego’s
Bumbling game,
Burning through the needless,
Fear and shame,
Is the purer,
Clearer,
Self-ignited flame.

It leaves behind the ashes,
The remnants of a regal war,
The ghosts of a distant past,
Put to sleep at last.

Until one becomes a mirror,
for objects within and without,
An ocean of clarity,
With no room for self-doubt,
Baggage burnt away,
A silent sea at bay,
Silent, simple, pure,
With the power to endure.


The niyamas speak of introspection.

A watchful, inner self,
Alert and alive,
To the known and the unknown,
To the seen and the unseen,
And to the senses five.

Looking inwards I know,
That it’s the world I see,
Everything lies within,
Where I am and where I was,
And tomorrow where I will be.

Perplexed puzzles of pain,
Swirling spills of sanity,
Curdled cobwebs of time,
And the sourness of vanity,
They all huddle from the light,
Hiding, haggling for another life,
But the self is sharp, and swift, and sound,
It brings them all under the knife.


The niyamas speak of surrender.

The warm cloak of the infinite,
Covers my every pore,
It’s in my breath, my thoughts, my life,
It forms my very core.

To let go of the shackles,
That comfort and cloud my mind,
That deludes me into madness,
When sanity I’m trying to find.

To let go,
To the infinite,
To settle in its palm,
To lay down in its lap.
And like a gift,
Its every treasure,
With excitement unwrap.

Unknown to me the future remains,
Unknown as a dark, blue sea,
Its mysteries deep, its waves countless,
Stretching unto infinity.

I let go and breathe,
I let in the new,
With no reserve,
With no ado,
I trust,
I find,
I grow,
I see,
I become one with
Infinity.


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The third of the eight- asanas.

My body, my instrument,
To feel,
To do,
To undo.
Fragile but sentient,
A vehicle,
to carry me,
through.

Succulent shell, it houses,
My being, my breath, my life,
Often confused with the true self,
My source of freedom and strife.

Knots of awareness,
awoken,
A dead shell,
resurrected,
Flavours of life,
Fragile death,
my appetite for the truth,
Whetted.

Movements,
move into,
A dance towards clarity,
A ballet of awareness,
Mental alacrity.

The breath is the music,
Notes high and low,
In control,
Contented,
The body begins to flow.

Trangressing the temporary,
Into the infinite,
Lifetimes left behind,
Loosen and unwind,
Until bit, by bit,
You acquaint a clear mind.

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Thursday, February 9, 2012

FLOWING THROUGH THE GUNAS

9th February, 2012

According to yoga philosophy, the human mind is made up of three gunas- rajas, tamas and sattva. As a result of the external and internal changes that one goes through in life, these are constantly shifting in magnitude; only to effect the temperament and consequentially the thoughts, words and actions of a human being.

Rajas is all about action. In its positive state it is energy, enthusiam, passion, assertion. In its negative state it is anger, aggression, impulsivity, arrogance. Similarly Tamas when positive is deliberation. When negative it is lethargy, cowardice, demotivation, fear. Sattva is only positive- the ideal state for the mind to be in. It is equanimity, tolerance, patience, stability, clarity.

Below is my experience of flowing through all the three gunas and how they make me feel. The goal is to be able to stay in sattva, come what may.


Blinding bolts of lightning,
Piercing through my pumping mind,
A war-field of words spoken,
My actions and thoughts are misaligned.

A surge of feverous fires,
Funny, how they find their way,
Through my mind to my tremulous tongue,
Leaving the world disarrayed.

I spit, I taunt, I tear apart,
I’m ruthless as I destroy,
The fire will consume,
And in its wake,
I think it’ll invite joy.

Yet there’s no peace at the end of it all,
In fact, no end is in sight,
The fever continues, the flashes reignite,
I’m banging my head against a wall.

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Sleepy sombre dull dark deep,
The motionless world in which I sleep,
Everything’s a haze,
I live in a daze,
And when it gets worse, I quietly weep.

A cloud covers my eyelids forever,
Even waking up is an endeavour,
My thoughts laze,
At a snail’s pace,
I’ve forgotten how it feels to be clever.

I lie in the mud,
Dirt covering my eyes,
The worms fill my brain,
I’ve swarmed with flies,
Immobile,
Dead-like,
In a swoon I lay,
The life-force has deserted me,
When will death come?
I’m waiting for the day.
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A silver sliver of serenity,
Flows freely through my frame,
There’s no bumbling,
There’s no fumbling,
I feel no fear or shame.

Every moment is new,
Every breath a gift,
My mind is clear as sunshine,
I’m no longer adrift.

I sense and see a clear course,
I’m driven by a freeing force,
Lightness envelops my every pore,
And I move forward like never before,
With each breath and every day,
I’m moving closer to the shimmering shore.

The bonds they weaken,
The shackles come loose,
I’m flooded with light,
With love I’m enthused.

Monday, September 20, 2010

The Goal, The Path

20th September, 2010

Walking towards the light,
many a shadow crossed my path.
I tripped, I stopped, I smiled,
tears overflowed alongside wrath.
But ne'er once did I lose sight,
of that pin-hole glimmering afar,
It remained my scorching furnace,
it has become my twinkling star.
Sprinkled along the path,
its fragments form a unified whole,
Illusions melt into the ground,
fears drip away from my soul,
a warm blanket of silence envelops me,
as I listen to distant bells toll.

Monday, April 12, 2010

My Soul is Full

12th April, 2010

My soul seemed full, so full today,
with a million leftovers of life;
With numerous strings unattached,
and a couple of them bound to strife.
With dreams lost or just plain forgotten,
And regret walking alongside,
With things I’d done and places I’d been,
With a zest that had all but died.
With a goal that I thought made life worthwhile,
And a heap of arrogance and greed and guile,
With a baggage full of life’s intricacies,
And complications that stretched over a mile.

My soul seemed full, so full this morn,
But no, not anymore,
It’s empty now.
With space and air,
With light and a void,
It’s full of the gift to gather once more.

Thursday, October 1, 2009

The Thin Red Line

1st October, '09





Silhouettes of reason,
shimmering,
next to sun-scorched
melodies of life.
One minute,
a bask in the sun,
and
the next,
the smell of searing skin.
A thin red line,
traversing its way
through
infinite darkness,
with only,
the wretched hope of life
for company,
writhing
wriggling
bleeding
to make it redder.
Who stepped over the line?
I wonder.
Was it me,
or my
wakefulness?
The greed for another
short-lived breath?
A mesmerized moment of
strangled survival?
Or my choice
of choosing
the charade,
over
the
chiseled sculpture of ashes?






This picture by Thomas Hawk was Nathan's prompt last week.While many people saw the picture as two separate individuals, I saw them as two identities of the same person, exactly the same except for their colour, the difference between them brought about by crossing over just a thin red line. What do you think? Does the idea come across? What do you think about the way I've used breaks and words in the poem? Please do leave your comments under the comments section. Thank you.

Monday, September 28, 2009

Midnight Meanderings

28th September, '09

Clickety-clack
clickety-clack
slippers on cold marble.
Midnight meanderings.
A stomach gone hungry again.
Twisting-turning
Twisting-turning
a psyche about to boil over.
Eyes searching for some warm company.
Unceremoniously picked-up
Unceremoniously dumped
a ball of white fur
Curled up at my cold feet
Sleep visits me again.